Anywho, I decided to do a quick breakfast post because, yes, it WAS that good:
In today's mix:
- 1/2 cup oats
- 1 small mashed banana
- 1/4 cup canned pumpkin
- 1/4 cup pineapple chunks
- 1 tbsp. unsweetened reduced fat coconut
- 1 tbsp. ground flax
- vanilla extract
After the run and LOTS of stretching (still sore. gah!), I headed for the shower. And for the first time in months, I actually kinda loved what I saw in the mirror. My response really was "Damn, I look good!" Overall, I was pleased- I didn't have the urge to immediately start picking myself apart and looking for flaws. I was genuinely happy with my appearance. And as my heart rate continued to come down from the run, I felt pretty damn good too. I'm not sure why I tried to fight this feeling so much before... Could've saved myself a lot of trouble.
I know my perception of myself will probably change weekly, but now, when I start to hate on my body, I'll just remember this day and how naturally positive I felt about myself, without even trying.
Perhaps this change is just part of the process of treating myself better... I've been taking the time to enjoy what I eat instead of fearing it and learning to appreciate what good workouts do for my body, besides burn calories. I *think* this is a big step, finally moving me away from weight-loss and/or weight maintenance and just being healthy. It's all new and tingly, but I ain't skeered ;D