Friday, October 30, 2009

Link time and a revelation.

Ok, first, some new favorite links:

Body By Pizza: This gal is just kicking major ass. I like her sense of humor and writing style too, so it quickly became a new favorite.

Man Meets Scale: This is actually the blog of David Kirchoff, CEO of Weight Watchers. I didn't think I was going to get much from it at first, but the majority of posts I've read so far are pretty friggin' awesome.

...Which leads me to my revelation... In this post, David acknowledges post-goal behavior that I am TOTALLY guilty of, which was more or less shameless self-promotion (I know bringing this up in my blog for the world to see isn't doing me any favors, but hear me out). I found myself guilty of all four behaviors he mentioned. I'm glad he addressed the topic though, because A) I can enter the phase of shutting the fuck up; and B) It was kind of a relief (ok, a pretty damn big relief) to know that I'm not the only one who has experienced this after reaching a weight-loss goal.

I was kinda becoming aware of this me-me-me behavior already, hence killing daily updates this week. I just got sick of myself, I guess. So this particular post seemed like a rare gem that made perfect sense and spoke the truth.

Anywho, I just had to share that. It made me feel better and aided in the process of getting back to Tamara and moving away from Tamara-Who-Lost-90-Pounds. I certainly don't want to belittle my weight loss, but I definitely don't want to be defined by it either. It's like I've been in this "the world must revolve around weight-loss and fitness and healthy eating" fog for the past several months, so I'm trying to ease on the brakes and get back to a normal, balanced (but obviously healthier) life.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Back, Weigh-in.

Ok- update time (told ya the bout of silence would probably be only a few days, heh).

First, we'll start with this morning's weigh-in: 156.8. A loss of 0.6 pounds. It was/is that time of the month for me and I ate reeeeally shitty last Friday, so that's the best I can hope for. After gaining the past two weeks, I was so relieved to see things go in the other direction this morning, for once.

I'm still in a funk, but I'm working through it. I'm stuck in limbo between wanting to lose more weight and maintaining. As of right now, I'd like to get to 153. That would put me at a total loss of 95 pounds. And once I get there (or if I get there, rather), I'll figure out my new plan of action. For now though, I need to see my good ol' ticker as a reminder of how far I've come:



I get caught up in the numbers in front of me all the time and often forget about past progress. Shame, shame, shame.

I've been eating really healthy this week. Lots of broccoli slaw, bell peppers, acorn squash, spinach, brussels sprouts- the list goes on. Just eating my way through seasonal produce deals, one day at a time, heh.

And then there's fitness. BUUUUHHHH. No, I haven't stopped working out. I wish I could, but I feel guilty and worthless if I don't. I've still been plugging along, every day. Just trying to re-evaluate my routines as well as my relationship with fitness in general. I'm not 100% sure, but after reading some fitness articles, I might have been over-training myself the past, I dunno, 1-2 months? So I'm trying to back down from my usual 600-800 calorie burning sessions and focusing on shorter, higher-intensity routines. For example, this morning at the gym, I did a stairmaster interval workout that kicked my ass, but it went by super fast. Five minute warm-up, 30 minutes of intervals, 5 minute cool-down. I totally couldn't do any level beyond 8, but it was a good challenge that got my heart rate up higher than it has been in weeks. Definitely a much-needed boost. Even though I couldn't do the routine as marked, I still felt accomplished because I made it through something that was hard. Prior to this morning, I haven't felt that sense of accomplishment in weeks because my usual routine was essentially getting easy and I was subconsciously bored and comfortable.

Tomorrow we're going to a Halloween party. I really need to have a somewhat normal weekend where I don't completely blow my points in a single night. I'm not going to plan my strategy too much in advance though, because it usually backfires. I'm just going to try and have as normal of a day as I can and just focus on enjoying myself and being around friends. Booze and candy should just be in the background somewhere, not necessarily the highlight of the evening. I will be at the gym beforehand though, trying out this elliptical interval routine. Gotta get some sort of sweat session in as back-up, I suppose.

There will be more updates in the future, but certainly not daily like I was doing before. And no more food lists because I think everyone has a pretty sound idea of what I eat day-to-day by now. But I'll still share any good recipes/meal ideas I come across.

I'm slowly trying to work out some post-goal issues as best as I can. I've discovered that I still don't have a 100% normal relationship with food yet. And I don't know if I ever will, but it would be nice to at least be less anxious around it. I hate that nagging feeling of desperation that I get in certain food-related situations. It makes me feel pathetic and I want it to stop. I want to feel strong again. And normal.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Taking a break.

I'm taking a break from posting updates here for a bit. Still going to be tracking my food and keeping up with my workouts, but right now, I need one less thing to update in my life and I think this is a good place to start. Yes, it's selfish, as I know I've acquired some regular readers and for that I apologize, but to be honest, I'm tired of reading my own thoughts on this topic every single day. It's gotten exhausting and even stressful at times. And since I have the WW online subscription again (for the month, anyway), I want to actually use it and therefore don't need yet another place to update my food points.

I'll resume posting when it feels right. Might be a few days or weeks or months. Thanks.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Weigh-in Day.

Today's weight: 157.4. A gain of 3.4 pounds. Fuck you, body. I don't ever know what the hell you want from me the majority of the time. Yes, I had a couple of bad days this week, but not enough for a 3+ pound gain. Jesus. My net loss this past month was +0.2 pounds. So no loss at all, really. Fantastic. I wasn't discouraged about the gain until I saw that the entire past month was basically a waste of time.

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg whites- 1
broccoli slaw- 0
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
kashi cereal- 1

snack:
apple- 1
carrot- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
2 c. soup- 3
l.c. wrap- 1
vegan burger- 1
laughing cow- 1
bell pepper- 0

snack:
9 almonds- 1
lightfull smoothie- 1
tootsie rolls- 1

dinner:

total points used: 14/22
activity points: BL Boot Camp- 3
WAPs: 35/35 remaining

EXERCISE:

Biggest Loser Boot Camp this morning. I almost went back to bed after seeing the number on the scale, but I knew I would be regretful later in the day if I didn't workout.

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Trying to stay positive since the weekend is almost here and my cold seems to be on its way out. And I know I need to focus on keeping things balanced. When I start going into extremes with food and exercise, the scale shows it, every time. I think my body got stressed this week and I probably didn't cut myself enough slack the past few days. Maybe I should have ate more. Maybe I didn't work out enough? Who knows. I never do. It was exciting falling below my 90 pound mark, but perhaps it was a fluke and the 140s and I really weren't meant to be. I'll keep trying a little longer, but I must admit, I won't be nearly as optimistic as I have been.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Sick day.

I'm at home sick today. Pretty sure I don't have the flu, but definitely got a head cold in the works. Not sure what to eat yet.

FOOD:

breakfast:
oatmeal w/ protein powder- 3
pomegranate arils- 1

snack:
apple- 1

lunch:
l.c. wrap- 1
broccoli slaw- 0
peppers- 0
laughing cow wedge- 1
2 c. high fiber soup- 3

snack:
boca chicken patty- 3

dinner:
salmon w/ spinach- 3
mashed butternut squash- 2

post-dinner:
frozen yogurt- 2
vitatop- 1
PB2- 1

total points used: 22/22
activity points: 35 min cycling w/ handweights- 3.5
WAPs: -13/35 remaining

EXERCISE:

Not sure if this will happen today. I still have a sore throat going on and I HATE working out with a sore throat. I'm not too achy to work out, but I am just tired overall. I might just watch my food like a hawk and take things easy on the workout front. We'll see.

Sore throat got better, so I rode my stationary bike while also doing some shoulder presses & bicep curls with some hand weights. I actually feel a little bit better. I was starting to get that "OMG, I feel useless because I haven't exercised" feeling, which was putting me in a bitchy mood.

The routine itself was actually a little more intense than I thought it would be. Adding the presses and curls while pumping my legs really got my heart rate up. Nice to know there's another decent cardio routine I can do at home when I don't feel like going to the gym or doing a DVD.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Damn my impulses.

Gaaahhhh. I swear, my impulsiveness will be the death of me some day. Soooo, basically ignore that last post. I already canceled the online WW membership. Again.

Had I taken the time to read about what it takes to be a Lifetime member, I wouldn't have bothered in the first place. After another exchange of e-mails with the WW employee lady, I have to lose 5 pounds through meetings, maintain for 6 weeks and so on. Online members can't become Lifetime members, which I suppose makes sense, but the cost difference for meetings just wasn't going to fly with my budget, even with my insurance company's discount. I could justify the online membership costs, but the meetings would just be putting me further into the hole each month.

Bah. So frustrating! And really, I've just lost too much weight already. I should've re-joined when I still had 20 pounds to lose. I thought about it, but wasn't taking WW employment as seriously at the time. And I'll be damned if I'm going to purposefully GAIN weight and spend more money just to get back into the program. I can't pretend that doing something like that would make sense.

So I basically wasted a little money for one-month of an online subscription. Not the worst thing in the world (I'll still use it through November for the accountability reasons I mentioned before), but just sort of retarded all around. All because I'm too impatient (and bored).

As far as the weight part is concerned, I don't want to re-adjust my goal below 148, because I honestly don't think I can maintain anything below that. Plus, I'm close to losing 5 pounds on my own already, duh. ANYWHO...

I'm just irritated. I wanna go to grad school for the master's in Health Promotion, but all of the classes are offered during the day when I work (which sucks, because the school would pay for the classes since I work at the same school). I want to become a personal trainer, but I need to tone up first, THEN invest a good chunk of change in the training materials and the exams. I just feel like I should be out there doing SOMETHING related to health and weight-loss (and let's be honest, getting paid for it), but I keep hitting these stupid roadblocks that put everything on hold indefinitely.

I'm not going to lie, I'm feeling a void in my life right now because I'm not making a living doing something I love and feel represents my interests (I know, welcome to the club, right?). It's frustrating knowing what you want to do, but not having the resources (or time or money) to do it.

So here I am, an amateur who lost over 90 pounds, is certified in nothing and has a lot of debt, haha. Good grief.

Oh, and on top of that, I'm coming down with a cold. No wonder I wasn't thinking clearly all day.

Paying for an old friend.

So, I have a confession to make... I re-signed up with Weight Watchers Online this morning. I know- "What? Why? Weren't you doing just fine following your own free version?" Yes, yes I was.

To be honest, the main reason I signed up again was so I can (hopefully) have a shot at becoming a WW employee. I know, it's not the smartest idea to invest money in something if the outcome isn't guaranteed. Yes, I'm basically gambling right now, but it's not so bad. I was able to sign up through my insurance provider's website at a discounted rate, so that made the decision a little easier (and budget-friendly).

I suppose becoming a leader some day would be cool, but right now, I'd just like to find a receptionist position and go from there. I've never actually been to a meeting, so I have no clue what it's like, aside from my vague memories from when my mom and I used to go when I was 12.

And truthfully, even though I've been successful without all of the official WW tools, I still missed having full access to the site. It saved some of my data from before and I was also able to go back and enter all of my previous weights back to September 2008.

Lastly, I think knowing that I'm paying for this will make me more accountable and keep me focused, much like my gym membership. It probably seems silly, but I do have a renewed sense of motivation right now and feel happy with my decision.

I know with the economy, the chances of me getting hired with them are probably slim-to-none, but at the very least, they can guide me to my goal and I can finally experience the joy of being dubbed a Lifetime Member. (And hey, I might have a shot at being one of their published success stories too! Heh heh.) I've been corresponding via e-mail with a lady who I'm assuming is a local WW employee, so hopefully that will keep me on their radar (she initially contacted me after I filled out the online employment application form a few nights ago). We'll see where things go.

I'm still following the Points plan (I still can't comprehend the Simply Filling plan, so I need to read up on that to see if I want to try it down the road), but I'm trying to get used to how they treat activity points and weekly allowance points now. They basically swapped them. When I heard about this idea a few months ago, I thought it was silly, but I guess it's ok. It doesn't really change how I earn activity points, but it is kind of nice to see I still have "banked" activity points left this week, as opposed to negative allowance points on my old spreadsheet. Sometimes little changes like that can be the mental boost I need to get through the week, haha.

ANYWHO, I'm happy. I love Weight Watchers, always loved the approach and philosophy and it feels great to "be back," in a sense. In fact, I think I'll look into trying a meeting soon. I'm not sure if they still give free meeting vouchers to Online members, but I suppose it's worth checking out. I just have this itch to get involved with the program in any way that I can.
Dinner last night was awesome. I made my version of Chicken with Portobello Mushrooms & Artichoke Hearts. It was adapted from this original version. The main differences are that I used half the oil, chicken broth (instead of beef) and red wine instead of brandy. I baked a potato on the side and let it soak up the extra broth. So friggin' yum.

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. cottage cheese w/ pumpkin- 2
kashi cereal- 1

snack:
apple- 1
carrot/bell pepper- 0
hummus- 1
9 almonds- 1

lunch:
leftover chicken/mushroom/artichoke- 5
broccoli slaw- 0
f.f. french dressing- 1

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
l.c. wrap- 1
tuna- 2
light mayo- 1
acorn squash- 2

post-dinner:
frozen yogurt- 2
vitatop- 1

total points used: 22/22
activity points: BL Boot Camp, all levels- 3
WAPs: -13/35 remaining

Quiz tonight, assuming the weather doesn't get shittier than it already is, so I'm planning a quickie-meal for dinner. Probably mashed acorn squash and a tuna salad wrap. Or soup. Not sure yet.

EXERCISE:

Did some Biggest Loser Boot Camp this morning. Didn't push myself as hard, so I burned about 50 calories less than usual. I'll either hit the gym tomorrow or do a Jillian Michaels DVD at home.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Oh, for crying out loud.

Overate again last night. I don't know what my deal is this week. One minute I care, the next, I don't. I'm slipping into the same cycle of anxiety and self-sabotage that I suffered through after losing 80 pounds. I was so excited (and impatient) to reach my next milestone, that I started stressing myself out and making inconsistent choices.

Said cycle involved overexercising to compensate for overeating, which is exactly what I'm doing this week and I hate myself for it. Mostly because I should know better. I do know better. Sigh. I suppose the best I can do is forgive myself and move on, but slowly and with caution. I've been getting ahead of myself again, with regards to advanced planning of food and fitness. Normally, that's a good thing, but if I try to plan shit out weeks ahead of time, I just end up making myself crazy, especially if I don't meet those commitments.

I need to take my own advice that I often give to others: Take things one day at a time. Each day (or in some cases, each hour) is a new beginning and a new opportunity to start fresh and re-focus. I need to stop and look back at how far I've already come. It's still a challenge though; I still have my days where I feel like I'm back at 248 pounds and I'm briefly haunted by that old hopeless feeling. It's a lot harder to shake than I thought it would be, but I can't be entirely surprised by it either; I was overweight since age 8 and have only been at a normal weight for a few months. For so many years, I wanted to prove to myself that I could one day be at a healthy weight. Most days, it seemed impossible and I really was convinced that I would be fat for the rest of my life. Well, I've reached the normal weight, but I still have that nagging feeling that there's still more to prove, hence me trying to tone up and lose the last 10 pounds to make the loss an even 100. I know it's not good to focus on numbers, but I have and still am.

I just need to breathe and remind myself that this is not a race. And if I have a nervous breakdown before reaching the 100 pound mark, I won't have let anyone down.

Whew. That ended up going on longer than I intended. Sorry. On to the normal stuff, haha.

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg whites- 1
spinach/mushroom/parmesan- 1
pesto romano chicken sausage- 2

snack:
apple- 1
carrot/celery- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
leftover cassoulet- 5

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
Chicken w/ Portobello Mushrooms & Artichoke Hearts- 5
potato- 2

post-dinner:
vitatop- 1
frozen yogurt- 2
laughing cow- 1

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 60 min. HIIT routine- 8
net points: 22
WAPs: -13/35 remaining

planning on trying a chicken/portobello mushroom/artichoke heart recipe that I found, mostly because, shock!, I actually have all of those ingredients on hand. I'll have to make some adjustments though, so I'll post both versions tomorrow. Might have some broccoli or green beans on the side. Or potatoes. We'll see.

EXERCISE:

Well, as expected, my food guilt from last night turned into gym guilt this morning.

Today's routine:
-10 min. run
-15 min. incline training
-15 min. stair master
-20 min. elliptical

Made a few slight changes: started out with a 20% grade on the incline interval (versus my usual 18 or 19%) and also did a new course on the stair master. I usually do what's called the 'Fat Burner' on level 7, but today I tried the 'Fat Burner Plus' course and varied the levels between 6 and 8. It was tough, but I liked the change of pace.

Even though I was probably overdoing it by shooting for 800 calories, I didn't struggle to get through any of the intervals. My heart rate was up higher than usual most of the time, but I still felt good. Cleared my head a bit too, so overall it was a nice session.

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Other than all of that, I'm just looking forward to relaxing with Biggest Loser tonight.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Quote for the day.

"It won't work if you don't."

-Jumoke Hill, ExerciseTV

Love it. Simple to remember and resonates in my mind pretty well.

Adventures in Parsnipping.

This morning, I tried a parsnip for the first time. I bought one a couple of weeks ago and decided it was time to bust into it before it went bad.

I peeled it and grated it. Tossed about 1/2 cup into a skillet with some cooking spray, garlic powder, onion powder, salt & pepper. I was going for kind of a hash-brown type of thing. I let it cook for a few minutes, then added some egg beaters and cooked it all through. Sprinkled a little bit of parmesan on top.

Sigh.

I wish I could say it was an awesome new food discovery, but it wasn't. To be honest, I gagged through every other bite. And I'm almost certain it was because I didn't cook the parsnip through properly. I think it's one of those things that needs enough cook time to tone down that... I dunno... Minty taste? Not sure if minty is the right word. It's not really bitter, but there's definitely a distinct flavor in there that could potentially be eliminated (or at least lessened) by proper roasting with oil or something. I still have about a cup and a half left to play around with. It wasn't the worst thing ever, it just wasn't the best choice to mix with eggs. There's still potential for me to love it, so I'll try something new over the next day or so.

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg beaters- 1
parsnip w/ parmesan- 1
crustless pumpkin pie- 1

snack:
apple- 1
vitatop- 1
carrot- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
salad w/ dressing- 1
l.c. wrap- 1
turkey- 1
f.f. cheese- 1
broccoli slaw- 0

snack:
acorn squash- 2
pomegranate arils- 1

dinner:
Skillet Cassoulet (my version, sans breadcrumbs)- 5

post-dinner:
pumpkin & s.f. pudding- 2
frozen yogurt- 4
vitaop- 2
lean cuisine pizza- 7
almonds/dried cranberries- 4

total points used: 37/22
activity points: 23 min. lifting routine- 2
net points: 35
WAPs: -13/35 remaining

Weighed myself this morning and it would appear that I undid the damage from Friday's binge. I don't want to jinx anything, but I think if I stay on-track the next few days, I'll be in good shape at the next weigh-in.

I'm thinking of trying this Cassoulet recipe for dinner tonight. I got a sampler pack of different chicken sausages a couple of weeks ago, so I'm pretty sure there's at least a couple of varieties that would work well. Seems easy enough. Plus I have some leftover tomato paste in the fridge that I need to use up.

Lastly, I took the day off from work, hence no snacks or lunch planned as of yet.

EXERCISE:

Did some lifting.

Today's routine:
-5 min warm-up (jump rope, jumping jacks, butt kicks)
-4 sets squats, 12 reps (jump rope in between sets)
-4 sets, 12 bench presses (burpees in between sets)

I think at the next routine, I'll try some shoulder presses. Those squats are still killing me, which means I'm gonna keep doing them, haha.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

My stomach is finally feeling normal again, which made getting motivated for the gym this morning a lot easier.

FOOD:

breakfast:
oatmeal w/ peaches- 2
protein powder- 1
crustless pumpkin pie- 1

lunch:
l.c. wrap- 1
turkey- 1
cheese- 1
tomato/broccoli slaw/peppers- 0
vitatop- 1

snack:
carrot- 0
PB2- 1
salad w/ dressing- .5
s.f. pudding (mix)- .5

dinner:
steak- 7
zucchini w/ olive oil- 1
mashed potatoes- 4

post-dinner:
fudge bar- 1
vitatop- 1
strawberries- 0

total points used: 24/22
activity points: 55 min. HIIT routine- 7
net points: 22
WAPs: 0/35 remaining

Doug is planning on grilling out today, so I'm pretty excited. The weather will be perfect for it too.

EXERCISE:

Another HIIT routine at the gym. Nothing too exciting to report.

Today's routine:
-5 min. warm-up run
-15 min. incline training
-5 min. run
-15 min. stair master
-5 min. rowing
-10 min. elliptical

Tomorrow I'm planning on doing some lifting.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

Shut up and run.

I got a run in this afternoon afterall. I just couldn't let the day go by without sweating, especially after completely de-railing my diet yesterday. But by going outside and hitting the trail, I suppose I haven't completely de-railed yet, right?

It was one of the worst runs I've ever had, but a bad run is better than no run at all, I suppose.

I was still feeling heavy from all of the extra food in my stomach, so I had to push so much harder. My speed sucked. My heart rate monitor was acting up, so I finally just turned it off and had to estimate how many calories I burned. My shuffle clip kept falling off of my shirt, leaving me distracted. My stomach kept cramping up, which led to more walking breaks. And I was dehydrated.

But.

I pushed through. I pushed through because I have no other choice. I have a new goal that I want to reach and I have to push to reach it. I was tired of hearing all of the compromises and excuses going through my head while we were out running errands earlier. Finally, I realized that although I can move on from a bad night of eating, I can't move on from not moving. Unless I'm seriously injured or ill, I just can't make excuses for not sweating if the time and ability are both available.

And because of that, I feel so much better.

Progress with Progresso

Starting to feel better, finally. While doing chores the burning, tight sensation in my upper stomach wouldn't go away so now I'm wondering if I aggravated an ulcer. I've had stomach ulcers before, so the pain is pretty familiar by now. Not sure how I get them, but drinking and crap eating usually bring them to my attention. If that's the case, the puking makes sense too. I've never been much of a puker (even with lots of alcohol), but getting ulcers changed that.

Not 100% sure that an ulcer the case, but either way I decided to make some light Progresso soup and added as much cayenne pepper as I could stand and now I feel loads better. I know, contrary to popular belief, cayenne is awesome for treating mild (i.e., non-bleeding) ulcers, as well as stomach pain and heart burn in general.

Doug wants to go to Wal-Mart, so maybe walking around some more will do me some good.

FOOD:

breakfast:
saltines- 1

snack:
apple- 1

lunch:
2 c. soup- 3

snack:
dove bar- 4
beef jerky- 1

dinner:
broccoli slaw w/ 1 tbsp dressing- 1
potato- 2
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
light sour cream- 1
salsa- 0
l.c. wrap- 1
boca crumbles- 1
cheese single- 1
pickles- 0

total points used: 18/22
activity points: 40-ish min. run- 4.5
WAPs: 0/35 remaining

EXERCISE:

Still up in the air. Did some vacuuming and cleaned the bathrooms, but I didn't sweat, so it's not even worth counting at this point.

I sucked it up and went for a run outside on the trail.

Fail.

I am a jackass.

Last night, I ate all of my weekly allowance points. Yep, in one night. And as I've discovered this morning, I basically ate myself sick.

First of all, it's not the points I'm so upset about, it's what I spent them on that makes me mad. I didn't even spend them on something indulgent and awesome (like wings or good pizza)... I just spent them all on stuff around the house. I told myself I wasn't going to go somewhere and spend money on crap food, so instead I just ate a TON of "low-fat" and "healthy-ish" crap that was already available in our fridge, freezer and cupboards. It was so stupid. I drank some wine too, so that kinda kept the munching going.

Anywho. On the upside, I wrote stuff down as I gorged myself, so I was able to go back and accurately track everything on The Daily Plate this morning.

Speaking of this morning, it has sucked so far. I woke up early and thought "Ok Tam, just start some laundry, take things slow for an hour or so and then head to the gym." Well, I got the laundry started, feeling full and tired, but ok for the most part. Then I sat down to check my e-mail and that's when the heartburn kicked in and my stomach started rolling over on top of itself.

I limped to the bathroom, chugged some Alka-Seltzer (the heartburn kind) and a few minutes later, puked.

I wasn't mad at myself for eating so much last night, but I'm absolutely ashamed this morning for eating so much that my body literally couldn't handle it. What the hell is wrong with me? Who does that sort of thing? Ugh. I've never, ever (even back in my heavier days) ate myself to the point of puking. I'm feeling weak (both physically and emotionally) and confused (why didn't I stop eating sooner? why did my self-control just up and disappear?). I can't explain it. It wasn't an emotional binge... If anything, I've always been prone to boredom eating. And it was indeed a boring Friday night, sitting at home watching TV... But there's been loads of nights like that and I didn't eat myself sick on those nights... Who knows.

So, plan of action for today? Not sure yet. I'm going to continue my laundry, move on to some much needed housework and just take things slow. My first reaction was "I need to get my ass to the gym and burn 1,000 calories!" but I'm not so sure that heavy exercise is the best move right now. I'm feeling a little bit better after the puke, but still off overall. If I feel up to it later, I'll ride my stationary bike. Something low-impact that will be easy on my stomach. Tomorrow will be a big gym day for sure though.

As for food, ha! Of course nothing sounds good right now. I know it's never good to not eat as a means of making up for overeating the day before, but I can almost guarantee that I will be well below my daily points today. I'm sure there will be soup at some point today, but other than that, forget about it.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Weigh-in Day.

Today's weight: 153.8. A gain of 1.4 pounds. Hey, I'm totally cool with that. A person my size can't expect to maintain (or even add to) a 4 pound loss from the previous week. My body is trying to balance itself out and I get that. Although I used a little more allowance points than the previous week, all in all I did all of the right things this week. Good mix of fitness routines and lots of healthy foods (hell, I ate a whole acorn squash by myself last night alone). It's not like I ate tacos and drank beer all week, so there's no reason for me to be discouraged by this at all. And, hello? It's Friday! How can I not be in a good mood? I didn't even sleep particularly well last night, but I'm here and only 9 hours away from the weekend. Holla!

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. greek yogurt w/ blueberries- 2
crustless pumpkin pie- 1

snack:
vitatop- 1
apple- 1
carrot/cucumber- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
healthy choice chicken/shrimp cafe steamer- 5

snack:
protein powder- 1
9 almonds- 1
tootsie rolls- 1
crustless pumpkin pie- 1

dinner:
acorn squash- 2
l.c. tortilla- 1
tuna- 2
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
salsa- 0

post-dinner:
s.f. pudding w/ PB2- 2
vitatop- 1
crustless pumpkin pie- 1
digiorno 200 flatbread- 5
cereal w/ almond milk- 5

more crap- 26

total points used: 61/22
activity points: Biggest Loser Boot Camp, all levels (3.5), jump rope (.5)- 4
net points: 57
WAPs: 0/35 remaining

So I made a crustless pumpkin pie yesterday. Not bad! Especially for only one point per slice! Definitely will be making it again, but next time, I think I'll add a full cup of Splenda (versus 2/3) and less pumpkin pie spice. It was just a little too much for my taste. Nice little amount of protein too, thanks to the egg beaters.

EXERCISE:

Did some BL Boot Camp. Used heavier weights during some of the moves and focused more on my form. Burned a decent amount of calories. By the time it was over, I was so close to 400 cals, I just jumped rope for a few minutes to even things out.

Not sure what I'll do tomorrow. Either hit the gym or do Jillian Michaels' Banish Fat/Boost Metabolism DVD.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Link time!

Got some new links to share this week!

Tony "The Anti-Jared" Posnanski

I've actually heard of "The Anti-Jared" before, so it's possible that some of you have too. I vaguely remember seeing a quick clip of his story on a news station months ago. I came across his blog this week and can't stop going back and reading his older posts.

Just inspirational, overall. He says a lot of good things that make sense, especially to people who are just regular Joes/Janes bettering themselves through healthier eating and exercise. I must warn that he HATES the Biggest Loser though, so be prepared for some BL hatin', ha. (And I totally understand why there are a lot of health-conscious folks out there who hate the show; I guess I just take a lot of what goes on with a grain of salt. I love seeing people transform themselves, plain and simple, so that's why I keep tuning in each week.)

Escape From Obesity

I found out about this blog from The Anti-Jared and fell in love instantly. Some of the posts tend to be a bit long, but they all end on such positive notes! Lyn is honest, funny and totally understands what she needs to do each day to reach her goal. I'm having a hard time thinking of other things to say, so just read some of her posts and get inspired!

Is 9 am too early for a nap?

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. cottage cheese w/ pumpkin- 2
kashi cereal- 1

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrot/celery- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
leftover tofu/broccoli/noodles/PB2 sauce- 7

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1
crustless pumpkin pie- 1

dinner:
chicken- 2
low carb wrap- 1
wing sauce- 0
tomato- 0
f.f. ranch- 1
acorn squash- 2

post-dinner:
vitatop- 1
s.f. pudding- 2
blueberries- 0

total points used: 24/22
activity points: 40 min. HIIT routine- 5
net points: 22
WAPs: 9/35 remaining

I skipped out on quiz last night so I could go to the grocery store and pick up some canned pumpkin, acorn & spaghetti squash, all of which I've been craving like mad lately. Also wanted to try on my new clothes from Old Navy that got delivered. I love size Medium. Both average and awesome.

EXERCISE:

Oh man. I was soooo not motivated at all this morning. As I changed into my workout clothes, all I could think about was how incredibly sore my ass muscles were from squatting with the barbell yesterday. For about 2 seconds, I contemplated not going to the gym at all, but I was already up, so I finished getting ready and pushed through.

When I got to my machine, I didn't feel like running or incline training OR much of anything, so I had to talk myself into a compromise. I decided I would just do 5 minute intervals (instead of the usual 10-15) and I would burn no more than 500 calories. I was still essentially doing a tough workout, but I knew that shorter intervals and less machines meant the time would go by faster and it did.

Today's routine:
-25 min. running/incline training (alternated 5 min. intervals)
-15 min. elliptical

I forgot my lifting gloves, so rowing was out and there was no way I was going to tackle the stair master, thanks to my aforementioned sore ass. I just wanted to keep things relatively easy this morning. I survived, but I still could totally go home and fall asleep right now.

Still planning on doing Biggest Loser Boot Camp tomorrow.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Good Ol' Crazy Eyes.

So I laughed quite a bit at Biggest Loser last night. Couldn't help it- things got that ridiculous. And there are more people that I'm irritated with and ready to see go home. Liz, especially. Why that woman couldn't shut the fuck up that whole episode, I don't know. She kept saying she would kill herself at the gym and I kinda wished she had. And Dina really disappointed me with the whole "I can't jump on the platform!" nonsense. Ugh. People's reasons for doing things or not doing things on that show are so weak & misguided sometimes, it makes me stabby. But I guess that's the point of the show; to help people work through those issues and get stronger. Some of them will see through their own bullshit eventually. I'd be lying if I said I didn't have those same excuses back in the day. Anywho.

FOOD:

breakfast:
sun-dried tomato chicken sausage- 2
egg beaters- 1
spinach- 0

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrot/cucumber- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
ronzoni pasta- 3
tofu- 3
broccoli- 0
PB2 sauce- 1

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
chicken- 2
low carb tortilla- 1
tomato- 0
wing sauce- 0
f.f. ranch- 1

post-dinner:
yoplait delight- 2
vitatop- 1
s.f. pudding- 1

total points used: 22/22
activity points: 23 min. weight lifting routine- 2
WAPs: 9/35 remaining

Quiz tonight, so I already have quick/easy dinner planned.

EXERCISE:

Lifting day!

Today's routine:
-5 min. warm-up (jump rope, jumping jacks, high knees, butt-kicks)
-4 sets of 12 squats (jump rope in between sets)
-4 sets of 12 bench presses (burpees in between sets)

Still at 30 lbs. I think it'll be a while before I can take on much more than that, haha.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Berries, Brawls and Biggest Loser

I just have to say that even though I tend to have the same mix of foods for breakfast everyday, I just do not get sick of some things. I can't imagine ever getting bored with the creaminess of greek yogurt, the sweetness of juicy, plump berries and the crunchiness of toasted oats and grains. This morning I just had to pause in between bites and think about how much I love good food. And when it's healthy for me as well, I can almost hear my body saying, "THANK YOU!"

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. greek yogurt w/ blueberries- 2
kashi cereal- 1

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrot/celery- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
low carb tortilla- 1
roast beef- 1
r.f. pepperjack- 1
2 c. soup- 4

snack:
protein water- 0
holey donut- 4

dinner:
ronzoni pasta- 3
tofu- 3
broccoli- 0
PB2- 1

total points used: 24/22
activity points: 45 min. HIIT routine- 6
net points: 22
WAPs: 9/35 remaining

Planning on throwing together a tofu dish tonight with some noodles, veggies and maybe a peanut sauce.

EXERCISE:

Pushed it pretty hard at the gym today. Like, when I was driving home, I felt beat the fuck up, as if I was just in a big brawl or something. But strangely enough, I kinda liked the feeling. Even though I was more exhausted than I had been in a while, underneath, I still felt strong. Probably because I knew I had just pushed myself out of my comfort zone and into a more challenging level of fitness.

As for what I did differently, I just took things up a notch in all of my intervals. For example, I ran at 7 mph for the majority of my run, I increased my resistance level on the elliptical, but lowered the incline a bit (which makes it harder because you're working with less range of motion) and I did the rowing machine for 10 minutes (doesn't sound like much, but since I did it last, it almost killed me). I swear, rowing has snuck up on me as probably the hardest interval in my routine right now. Even though you're sitting down, it still jacks your heart rate up.

I wanted to quit rowing after not even 5 minutes, but I dug a little deeper, reminded myself of why I woke up at 4:45 am in the first place and imagined Bob & Jillian from Biggest Loser in the gym with me, yelling at me to keep going. I know that last bit sounds incredibly silly (and maybe a bit psycho), but honestly, I do it all the time. They've become my fitness idols, so whenever I need a push during a workout, I imagine they're right beside me, telling me not to quit. Plus, it's Biggest Loser Tuesday, so I gotta get pumped for the new episode somehow!

Today's routine:
-10 min. warm up run
-15 min. incline training
-10 min. elliptical
-10 min. rowing

I need to remember to bring my lifting gloves next time I row; got a nice little blister on my hand today.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Grr.

This past weekend just didn't jive with me, in terms of self-control. I found myself wasting points and just not caring. And never again will I order Holey Donuts. That was the main issue. You'd think I'd have my will power in check by now, but not with those blasted things in the house. Overall, I just found myself bouncing back and forth between caring, not caring and giving in to emotional whims, which I haven't done in ages. And now the scale is up almost 5 pounds from Friday. Go me.

But, it's a new day and still early in the week. As always, there's never any point in dwelling on what I did wrong. Just need to look forward and get over it. I also need to keep in mind that since I had such a huge loss last week, that a gain is definitely possible this week. And while I can't necessarily avoid that, I can at least lessen the blow by staying focused from here on out.

FOOD:

breakfast:
chicken breakfast sausages- 2
kashi cereal w/ almond milk- 1

snack:
apple- 1
carrot/cucumber- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
leftover meatball stew- 6

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
chicken- 3
asparagus w/ olive oil- 1
baked fries- 3

post-dinner:
PB2 wrap- 2
1/2 holey donut (they're almost gone!)- 1
s.f. mousse- 1
strawberries- 0

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 55 min. HIIT routine- 7
net points: 22
WAPs: 9/35 remaining

Need to think of something for dinner that involves chicken and asparagus. Probably something simple... And maybe some sort of potatoes on the side.

EXERCISE:

The guilt from all of the sugar I ate last night set in and I decided I needed to torch some calories at the gym, instead of doing my usual Monday Biggest Loser Boot Camp routine. Not sure if I'll do Boot Camp tomorrow or push it off until later in the week. For now, the plan is gym again tomorrow, weight lift on Wednesday, gym on Thursday and then Boot Camp on Friday. I think that'll be a nice change of pace.

Anywho, today's routine:
-10 min. warm-up run
-15 min. incline training
-15 min stair master
-10 min. elliptical
-5 min. rowing

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Sunday stew.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

FOOD:

breakfast:
oatmeal w/ berries & protein powder- 3
chicken breakfast sausages- 2

snack:
holey donut- 5

lunch:
chicken sausage- 2
spaghetti squash w/ spinach- 1
parmesan- 1

snack:
popcorn- 1
apple- 1
beef jerky- 1

dinner:
italian meatball stew- 6
wine- 2

post-dinner:
s.f. mousse w/ pumpkin- 2
ice cream- 3
holey donuts- 5

total points used: 35/22
activity points: 25 min. weight routine- 2
net points: 33
WAPs: 9/35 remaining

Planning on making some Italian Meatball Stew for dinner tonight. Love that stuff.

EXERCISE:

Did some lifting this morning.

Today's routine:
-5 min. warm-up (jump rope/jumping jacks/butt-kicks)
-4 sets of 12 squats, jump rope in between sets.
-4 sets of 15 deadlifts, burpees in between sets.

Still rocking the 30 lbs. It's still a good weight for squats, but it's a bit too light for deadlifts, so I'll have to plan ahead and adjust the weight beforehand, depending on what moves I want to do that day.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Fries, freezing rain and fitness.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

We went to a comedy club in Denver last night to see one of my favorite comedians (Jim Norton) and I shared a basket of fries with Doug. Sigh.

The drive home sucked too, thanks to freezing rain, fog and the feeling that I was coming down with a cold.

But, I prevailed this morning. After 5 hours of sleep, I slowly got ready for the gym. I was feeling sluggish since I hadn't worked out at all yesterday and needed to sweat things out. And I did! I feel so much better now. Still worried about getting sick though, especially since our housemate was complaining about a chest cold last night. Ugh.

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg beaters- 2
grilled tomato slices- 0
chicken sausage links- 2

lunch:
vegan burger- 1
1 slice bread- 1
strawberries- 0
2 c. soup- 4
holey donut- 4

snack:
apple- 1
popcorn ball- 1

dinner:
sundried-tomato chicken sausage- 2
spaghetti squash w/ parmesan- 2
diced tomato- 0

post-dinner:
s.f. mousse w/ pumpkin- 2
blueberries- 1

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 60 min. HIIT routine- 8
net points: 22
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

EXERCISE:

Since I hadn't done a HIIT routine since Tuesday, I was worried I would struggle to get through everything today, but I actually had some good bursts of energy, surprisingly.

Today's routine:
-10 min. warm-up/run
-15 min. incline training
-15 min. stair master
-12 min. elliptical
-8 min. rowing

Worked off some of that lingering soreness from yesterday, so I should be ready to weight lift tomorrow.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Weigh-in Day.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Today's weight: 152.4. A loss of 4.2 pounds! I shit you not, folks. I can't believe I'm about to say this, but the 100-pound goal is back on!




As for what I did, all I can say is that I found a good balance of cardio and weight-training, along with eating a few extra points here and there. Just did my best to keep things balanced and consistent.

I almost have to laugh at this because I look back at this past summer and how long it took me to get out of the 160s. I was starting to think that my body had this pre-determined weight that it would not let me go under. Turns out I just needed to work out smarter and make a few changes to my diet (more fruits & veggies, less carb-y/processed snacks). Ta-da!

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. cottage cheese w/ pumpkin- 2
kashi cereal- 1

snack:
apple- 1
strawberries- 0
carrots- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
smart ones teriyaki chicken- 4
10 almonds- 1.5

snack:
tootsie pop- 1
coffee w/ protein powder- .5

dinner:
wahoo's shrimp burrito- 9
holey donut- 4

post-dinner:
yoplait delight- 2
fries- 10 (?)

total points used: 37/22
activity points: day off
net points: 37
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

I'm expecting a variety pack of chicken sausages from Bilinski Sausages (damn you, Food Network!), so I'm planning on making some of those and knocking out the other spaghetti squash I got.

EXERCISE:

Taking the day off today. GASP!, I know. The majority of my upper body started feeling sore yesterday afternoon, but it was still that "nice" kind of sore at the time. This morning though, it was just plain painful, so I decided that weight lifting was out of the question today. My last day off from working out was September 16th, so I kinda deserve this one.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Sprouts & Sprinkles.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

So last night, I played around with brussels sprouts again. I sauteed them in a pan with oil, salt, pepper and dried cranberries. I saw a picture of them online yesterday with the cranberries and it looked good. And it actually was! The sweetness of the cranberries helps balance out some of the bitter aftertaste of the sprouts. Next time though, instead of trying to cook the cranberries with the sprouts in the pan, I'll microwave them separately with a little water first. They ended up kinda crunchy last night, heh.

Also, quick note about Holey Donuts: I've resisted trying these things because I didn't want to be that person who ordered doughnuts over the Internet. HOWEVER, last week they were having a pretty good sale where everything was half-off, so I used that as an excuse to try three of their sampler boxes.

They arrived yesterday. Oh. My. God. Granted, I haven't had a doughnut in like, 2 years, but I still thought they were awesome. The dough itself is a bit dry, which was to be expected since they cut out so much fat, but the toppings and fillings are pretty spot-on. My strategy for keeping them in the house longer is to only thaw out one box at a time and cut each one in half so Doug and I can both try each flavor. Probably won't order them again until they have another decent sale like that, so I gotta at least try and make them last longer than a week, haha.

FOOD:

pre-workout:
coffee w/ protein powder & almond milk- 1

breakfast:
f.f. cottage cheese w/ pumpkin- 2
kashi waffle- 1

snack:
apple- 1
9 almonds- 1
strawberries-0

lunch:
corn tortillas- 1
boca crumbles- 1
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
salsa- 0
yam- 2
holey donut chocolate crumb- 3

snack:
carrot- 0
PB2- 1

dinner:
salmon- 3
green beans w/ teriyaki sauce- 1

post-dinner:
holey donut- 5

total points used: 24/22
activity points: Jillian Michaels Banish/Boost DVD- 5
net points: 22
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

Not at work today, so I don't have any snacks or lunch planned as of yet.

Also, I had a heart attack yesterday while opening a can of tuna. Apparently, I accidentally grabbed like 4 cans of tuna packed in oil when I went shopping last week. Ugh. I panicked because I thought all 12 cans were packed in oil, but luckily it was only 4. Lesson learned! Double-check those babies because the labels are almost identical and stock people don't always put stuff where it should be. Grr.

EXERCISE:

I opted for Jillian Michaels' Banish Fat/Boost Metabolism DVD this morning instead of going to the gym. I like to go back and use this DVD every once in a while to see the change in my level of fitness. It was fun! My form has improved quite a bit and I added hand-weights to all of the punching moves for an extra challenge. Good sweat, good times.

Planning on doing free weights tomorrow at home. I saw an insanely awesome number on the scale this morning (which probably means I jinxed tomorrow's official weigh-in, heh), and the main thing I can attribute it to is weight-lifting. Why didn't I jump on this bandwagon sooner? I could have saved myself a lot of time and stress. Ah well.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Zzzz.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Dinner last night was awesome. Cooked chicken breasts in a skillet with my favorite rotisserie seasoning, then tossed them in some buffalo wing sauce. Served with mashed cauliflower and grilled zucchini & tomatoes. Quick, healthy, filling and delicious. Yes, it IS possible.

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. cottage cheese w/ pumpkin- 2
kashi waffle- 1
coffee & 1/4 c. almond milk- 0

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrots/cucumber- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
healthy choice chicken pesto- 6

snack:
protein powder- 1

dinner:
tuna w/ 1 tbsp. BBQ sauce- 2
brussels sprouts w/ 1 tbsp. dried cranberries- 1
olive oil- 1
raspberry fudge holey donut- 5

total points used: 22/22
activity points: 20 min lifting routine- 1.5
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

Pumpkin and cottage cheese was awesome! Added some splenda and cinnamon. Super filling (especially with the waffle) and felt like I was starting the day with dessert. Mmm.

Going to quiz tonight, so I'm planning on just wingin' it for dinner. Plenty of frozen veggies, veggie burgers, canned beans, canned veggies and tuna for me to work with.

EXERCISE:

Did my first lifting session with the new set this morning. Barbell (which hardly weighs anything) plus 30 lbs.

Today's routine:
-5 min. warm-up (jump rope, jumping jacks, high knees, butt-kicks)
-1 set 12 squats, no barbell
-3 sets 12 squats, with barbell
-4 sets of 12 bench presses

Need to work on my form still, especially with the bench press. Seems easy enough, but I'm still getting used to my new bench and figuring out which adjustments to make for the best fit.

Started to do yoga afterward, but said "fuck this" after about 20 seconds into the warm-up. Since I haven't taken a whole day off from working out the past few weeks, I figured at the very least, I needed a "lazy" workout day where I kept things under 30 minutes. Yes, it's an excuse and yes I probably could have benefited from the yoga, but whatever.

Lastly, my guns are starting to look/feel loaded. I'm kinda falling in love with them now. Thank you, weight training! Haha.

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Also did a body fat percentage measurement this morning. First week, I was at 20.9% (approximately). Second week, no change. Third week, I didn't bother measuring since I was on my period. This week: 19%. Not bad! I have noticed some visual changes the past couple of weeks, especially in my upper body, so I was hoping that would translate into an overall fat loss.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Brrr.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Not ready for this cooler weather yet. Especially in the mornings, when I'm walking to work. Buh.

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. greek yogurt w/ blueberries- 2
1/2 c. kashi cereal- 1
coffee & 1/4 c. almond milk- 0

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrots/celery- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
healthy choice whiskey steak bowl- 5

snack:
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
1.5 serving chicken breast- 4
wing sauce- 0
mashed cauliflower- 2
zucchini/tomatoes w/ olive oil- 1

post-dinner:
PB2 sandwich- 2
s.f. mousse w/ pumpkin- 2

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 45 min. HIIT routine- 6
net points: 22
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

Pulled out some chicken for dinner. I'm thinking either grilled or with shake 'n' bake, with mashed cauliflower and grilled zucchini on the side.

EXERCISE:

Another sweat session at the gym.

Today's routine:
-10 min. warm-up/run
-15 min. incline training
-10 min. rowing
-10 min. elliptical/cool-down

Tomorrow I'm planning on lifting. Bench-presses and squats with the barbell, most likely. Depending on how long I go for, I might also do some yoga afterward. Dunno yet.

Monday, October 5, 2009

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg beaters- 1
spinach/tomato- 0
banana- 2

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrot sticks- 0
PB2- 1

lunch:
leftover chili- 4
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
popcorn ball -1

snack:
cucumber/tomato salad- 0
lightfull smoothie- 1

dinner:
leftover chili- 4
f.f. shredded cheese- 1
corn tortillas- 1

post-dinner:
banana- 2
s.f. mousse- 1

total points used: 22/22
activity points: Biggest Loser Boot Camp, all levels- 3.5
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

I really need to get some more fat in before the day's over.

EXERCISE:

Another Monday of BL Boot Camp. Got to try out one of my new resistance bands and I like it a lot better than my other one. Much easier to handle and adjust for when I want to add more resistance.

The new weight bench is set up! So excited. And also debating whether or not I should go to the gym tomorrow for cardio or stay at home and lift. Decisions, decisions.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Pump up the jams.

So, while the boyfriend is putting together my weight bench (I'm on-call if he needs help, heh), I thought I'd share my workout playlist (sorted by artist). And for some reason, the images aren't displaying in full. It looks fine in Google Reader though, FYI:


















I should probably make more of a regular effort to mix in more artists, but I have so much damn music in my main collection that I'm just too lazy some of the time.

I sometimes forget how important music is during a workout. It really is like fuel for me. The handful of times I've forgotten my shuffle at home were some of the worst workouts I've had.
(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg beaters- 1
bell pepper/salsa- 0
yam- 3

lunch:
6" Subway Buffalo Chicken- 7

snack:
1/2 banana- 1
PB2- 1

dinner:
beef/pinto bean chili- 4
f.f. shredded cheese- 1

post-dinner:
cookie- 2.5
chips- .5
2 s.f. jello mousse cups- 3

total points used: 24/22
activity points: 20 min. shoulder presses/burpees- 2
net points: 22
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

Planning on making a pot of chili tonight for dinner and possibly trying the new Buffalo Chicken Sub from Subway for lunch. We'll see.

EXERCISE:

Still didn't get the weight set put together (it will get done before tomorrow!), so instead of doing deadlifts and burpees, I did some shoulder presses with my dumbbells and burpees. Deadlifts are best done with a bar, so I decided to substitute that with something that could be better done with dumbbells. Burpees still killed me, as usual.

Today's routine:
-10 presses
-20 burpees
-repeated 5 times

And my lifting gloves stained my hands. Awesome.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Friday night sweets and Saturday morning sweats.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Enjoyed my Tres Leches cake last night. Man, oh man. It's enjoying things like that that make me glad I plan ahead and wait. Waiting for a planned splurge makes it taste even better, somehow. And makes me feel zero guilt, which I used to have trouble with before, especially with random unplanned binges. These days, I just choose to have a better attitude and not be so hard on myself. Turns out, doing so makes me feel pretty awesome (and the scale results lately have been rad too).

FOOD:

breakfast:
oatmeal- 2
blueberries/protein powder- 1
1/2 banana- 1

lunch:
cucumber/radishes- 0
sesame dressing- 1
boca vegan burger- 1
hummus- 1
r.f. pepperjack- 1

snack:
apple- 1
chips- 2
salsa- 0

dinner:
brown rice- 3
shrimp- 2
aspargus/carrot/onion/teriyaki sauce- 1
olive oil- 1

post-dinner:
cookies- 5

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 60 min. HIIT routine- 7
net points: 22
WAPs: 20/35

EXERCISE:

Although I wasn't terribly guilty about the insane cake/sweet splurge from last night, I still figured it would be in my best interest to try and clear some of that sugar out of my system and headed to the gym. I added rowing into my routine today and it felt good. And high-intensity! I was so excited to be working my arms like that and keeping my heart rate up at the same time. Nice change of pace.

I also played around with an inclined run as well. Nothing extreme, but I'd like to be able to run somewhere between a 6 and 9% grade eventually. The settings I used today were definitely challenging. Felt good to push myself and not die, haha.

Today's routine:
-5 min. warm-up run
-15 min. incline training (18-20% grade, 3mph)
-10 min. run (4% grade, 6mph)
-15 min. rowing
-15 min. elliptical/cool-down

Treated myself to a few minutes in the sauna afterward. I swear, I could sit in that thing for hours, so it's hard to force myself to leave.

Ok. Time to get motivated and start reorganizing my workout room so we can finally get going on putting the weight set together. I'll be so pissed at myself if everything's still in boxes come Monday.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Weigh-in Day.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Today's weight: 156.6. A loss of 0.4 pounds. Hey, given that it's that time of the month, I will GLADLY take that! I was certain I would show a gain this week.

COOKIES! Ok, quick review of the Chewy Chocolate Cheek Cookies I got yesterday: First off, they're SMALL. So disappointingly small. Like, no bigger than an Oreo, really. Just a little thicker. And of course, I should have known better, even though the pictures (and the feature on Food Network) made them look 4x bigger.

BUT! Size isn't everything. After being disgusted by the sheer tininess, I hastily took a bite and quickly realized why it was so small. This was, by far, one of the best chewy chocolate cookies I had ever tasted in my entire life, both as a former fat-kid and a fit health-conscious lass. They are RICH! And CHEWY! And DECADENT! Definitely made from high-quality ingredients, no doubt.

So now I know. Will I buy them in the future? Probably not. It was just one of those frivolous things that I wanted to try and now I have and I'm over it. Yes, they taste awesome, but they're still expensive and unnecessary.

And each one is actually 2.5 points, not 2 (110 cal/6g fat/1g fiber). Hooray for them including nutritional info! Moving on...

FOOD:

breakfast:
f.f. greek yogurt w/ blueberries- 2
special k cereal- 1

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrots/cucumber/radishes- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
roast beef sandwich w/ cheese- 3
2 c. WW progresso soup- 2

snack:
protein water- 0

dinner:
chicken breast- 3
light butter- 1
sauce- 2
spaghetti squash- 2

post-dinner:
tres leches cake- 18
cookies- 5
popcorn- 1

total points used: 43/22
activity points: 45 min. HIIT routine- 6
net points: 37
WAPs: 20/35 remaining

Not sure what dinner will be. I pulled out some chicken, but then I remembered that I bought a huge bag of shrimp too. I'm thinking something with spaghetti squash. Sweet, delicious spaghetti squash.

EXERCISE:

More intervals at the gym. I was going to impose the no-more-than-500-calories rule again this morning, but then I remembered that I was planning on getting a slice of Tres Leches cake tonight, so I pushed and burned an extra 100. If I had more time, I probably would have shot for 700 or 800. Yes, this cake is so awesome that I'm willing to suffer for it, haha.

Today's routine:
-15 min. warm-up/run
-15 min. stair master
-15 min. elliptical/cool-down

Smelly Guy #1 was using one of the incline trainers again, so I didn't even bother trying to suffer through the smell. Just skipped incline training all together. And I was fine with that since I skipped the stair master yesterday (thanks to Smelly Guy #2). Still got a killer workout on my legs which is all that really matters.

Debating the gym tomorrow. And I know the weight system is going to take a good chunk of the day to set up, so I'll probably just do a Gym Junkies workout with my dumbbells. I don't have space in my workout room to do much else since the equipment boxes are in the way. We'll see. I'm feeling sadistic and kinda want to do the routine with the burpees again. Just about killed me last time, but I kinda loved it.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Big bowl of awesome.

(***If you're new to the blog, feel free to read my introductory posts and my Not-so-secret-Secret to Weight Loss.)

Last night's dinner was simple, yet so tasty. After buying a shitload of groceries and finally getting everything put away, Doug split up a chicken breast for us to share. I just grilled mine with some rotisserie seasoning. Meantime, I chopped up a green bell pepper and a tomato and rinsed some canned great northern beans (which I love now, apparently. Hadn't really had them or noticed them until last night). I still wasn't 100% sure at that point what I was going to do with those ingredients, but I knew I wanted grilled meat, beans and veggies, so I kept rolling with it.

I heated some olive oil in a pan and added the peppers and tomatoes. Sprinkled on some garlic powder, onion powder, salt, pepper and Italian seasoning. Then I added in the beans and let it all simmer for about 10 minutes. When the chicken was cooled, I just tore it into bite-sized pieces and stirred it in with the beans & veggies. Topped it with some grated parmesan and, hello!, bowl of awesome. And filling, too. I saved half of the bean mixture for lunch today and will have it with tuna.

That said, we have food in the house again. A LOT of food. I spent more than I thought I would, but I also got more than I planned and saved quite a bit, especially on the produce I got at Sunflower Market. They had an awesome crop of gala apples for crazy-cheap, so I stocked up. I know you can get apples year round and most people find them to be a boring fruit, but I love 'em. And galas are one of my favorite types. Anywho. Also got a couple of spaghetti squashes, radishes, cucumbers, zucchini, celery, more carrots (love me some carrots), cauliflower (planning on mashing it sometime next week) and a bunch of other stuff, including a parsnip. Never had a parsnip before, so I wanna try one. Never had beets either, so they're next on the list.

Quick tip: Get gutsy and try a new healthy food you've never had before (or maybe tried a long time ago and didn't like), about once a month. Especially fruits/veggies. That's what I'm trying to do these days to keep me motivated. Last month, I gave brussels sprouts another shot and I actually liked them better than I did before. Still not my favorite thing in the world, but I know they're good for me, so I'm willing to knock out that big bag of them, currently sitting in my freezer.

FOOD:

breakfast:
egg whites- 1
salsa- 0
1 oz. avocado- 1
light english muffin- 1

snack:
9 almonds- 1
apple- 1
carrots/cucumbers- 0
hummus- 1

lunch:
tuna- 2
leftover beans/veggies- 3

snack:
popcorn ball- 1
chocolate cheek cookie- 2.5

dinner:
salmon- 3
broccoli/zucchini/carrot w/ teriyaki sauce- 1


post-dinner:
chocolate cheek cookie- 2.5
yoplait delight- 2

total points used: 23/22
activity points: 40 min. HIIT routine- 5
net points: 22
WAPs: 29/35 remaining

My chocolate cheek cookies are getting delivered today! Ahhh! Can't wait. Totally having one tonight. Maybe two. Muhahaha.

EXERCISE:

Another morning at the gym. I enforced the no-more-than-500-calories rule on myself, so it was a slightly shorter session today.

Today's routine:
-10 min. run (got up to 7mph today and it wasn't too bad! I used to consider that a sprinting speed, but today, it felt pretty natural.)
-20 min. incline training
-10 min. elliptical

I wanted to do the stair master for a bit, but Smelly Guy #2 was using one of the machines and it was just too early for me to be nauseated by his smell. Smelly Guy #2 is a big guy (think football player) who likes to wear several layers of clothing (including a sweatshirt), lots of cologne and then tries to break out into the biggest sweat he can. The result? Utter and complete nastiness.

And to clarify, Smelly Guy #1 is the one I usually have to deal with when I use the incline trainer. He flat out smells like rotting onions. Like, he arrives at the gym smelling like onions; it's not like he starts to smell that way after his workout.

How do you tell a complete stranger they smell like ass? My chances of ending up next to SG #1 again in the future are pretty high, so I feel like I need to say something next time he decides to workout next to me. My first impulse is to say "Dude, you reek something FIERCE!" and then walk away, but I suppose I should avoid being a complete bitch and try to be more reasonable. Sigh.

Moving on. As for tomorrow's routine, I'm not sure yet. I think I'll probably hit the gym once more and then focus on resistance training this weekend, especially if we get my new weight system set up. I can't wait to start bench pressing!